| Got My Addictions |
[Nov. 16th, 2009|03:28 am] |
ATTN:
I'll be back in NYC Yonkers in 8 days!
I will return to Buffalo with a giant list of more reasons to drop out. |
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| He Ate My Heart And Then He Ate My Brain. |
[Nov. 15th, 2009|06:54 pm] |
I wish I could write in here about what happened to me last night but it's too embarrassing and fucked up. Even for a friends-only post. :( |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 8th, 2009|12:20 am] |
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IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY BUY ME SOMETHING |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 4th, 2009|02:13 pm] |
This is basically a video of me in LA. Eerie. |
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| Well That's Just Fabulous. |
[Oct. 19th, 2009|05:03 am] |
I am someone who is looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|10:19 pm] |
"So how many pancakes do you think that kitchen has seen?"
"Does it matter?"
"In the cold, harsh reality of daylight, I knew it didn't matter. But in the colder, harsher reality of a woman who just slept with someone she likes, it did. Google.com showed many, many listings on the art of Aleksandr Petrovsky and one on his many, many women.
"According to certain scientists, whenever a woman has sex, her body produces a chemical which causes her to emotionally attach. This chemical may also account for the series of terrifying questions that involuntarily pop into our minds after just one casual tryst. Questions like, 'Does he like me?' 'Will he call again?' and the classic, 'Where is this all going?' When it comes to men, even when we try to keep it light, how do we wind up in the dark?"
I'M SO CARRIE BRADSHAW.
It makes me sick sometimes.
I'm now 87 episodes into "Sex And The City." So close to finishing! It has been so epic for me, seriously mind-altering, this stupid TV show--really opening my brain to a lot of my past mistakes, mistakes my friends have made, mistakes I hope I never make. It has shown me things I wish to see in my life and I just feel like a better person and more in-tune with my emotions, my wants, my needs. I'm also learning how to be a better friend because of this show and hopefully I'll learn how to be a better boyfriend in the future if that damned day ever comes.
There are those stupid online quizzes you can take to find out which Sex And The City character you most resemble. Is an online quiz a true depiction of ourselves? Charlotte, Samantha, Carrie, and Miranda are all parts of me in different parts of my life. I was Samantha for about two years of my life. Whoops! I wish to be more like Miranda but I think I am more Charlotte and Carrie and I'm okay with that.
The emotional episodes are going to start soon. If you see me in person, I may be crying.
Every faggot and all women need to watch this show from start to finish. I don't know any straight men in real life basically but they may benefit as well.
I am spreading the Gospel.
/retarded |
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| Just Want To Be Together On A Night Like This |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|02:26 am] |
Leaving for Los Angeles to see Taylor in 3 weeks and 9 hours, to be exact. It's coming quick but not quick enough!
I know I'm going to love it to death, especially after living in Buffalo since 2006. My mind will literally explode in two at all the weather, people, constant activities, food, that I have been missing and that I will be enjoying every day after I graduate in May when I may or may not move there (50% NYC; 50% LA--it keeps changing).
Palm trees. Fucking. Palm. Trees.
Hills.
Mountains.
Deserts.
Beaches.
The Pacific Ocean.
Holy. Shit.
This is going to be completely epic. |
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| Hello. Can You Hear Me? Now Put Your Hands In The Air For The Century. |
[Oct. 7th, 2009|06:25 am] |
I just stayed up all night catching up on a class and it was just cancelled. I can't believe this I'm in complete shock and I don't know what to do right now if I should go to sleep or not because I have a meeting at 2.30PM and construction people are coming to my apartment soon probably. See more vvv
I go to Los Angeles in 23 days. Who's counting?
I got a new job, going to fill out the paperwork in a few hours. Hopefully, I'll like it.
Are things looking up?
I guess so, but I still just want to sleep the next 8 months of my life away and wake up with my B.A., a fab job, a great boyfriend, and an apartment in the city or L.A.
I bought Tori Amos' CD/DVD Abnormally Attracted To Sin (which is probably my favorite CD of 2009 duhhh) and got two free lithograph posters and one glossy poster included inside! How exciting, all for $19.95. Too bad I don't have the time to watch the DVD.
My realty agency was supposed to drill like 20 holes in my walls and put in some insulation. I moved all of my furniture about 3' from the walls and they never even got to doing the construction on my apartment from what I could tell. So angry. I have all this work to do and I can't get comfortable in this apartment and do it because shit is mad weird here in the middle of my humble abode. Excuses; I am full of them.
I'm going to stop cracking my fingers and knuckles starting today, I have decided.
I went to a fun house party on Saturday. I haven't been to a house party in maybe two years or something? I had a lot of anxiety before going to it actually because everyone there would be straight. I find myself more and more detached from straight society in the last year, unintentionally surrounding myself with supportive and good friends who just happen to be gay and gay-leaning. What do you say to straight people if you are a flaming homosexual like myself? We can't talk about Sex And The City, we can't talk about sports, we can't talk about women, we can't talk about men. Where is the middle ground? "O what a great party. O how's school? O how about this weather." Are all conversations this trite?
I did have a lot more fun than I ever thought I would. It was really nice, everyone was really pretty, and it made me want a tattoo because almost everyone there had tattoos. I felt left out and more and more I feel the need to join that club as I have some ideas for two tattoos that I can't wait to get, I just need to find the money, the proper artist, and the nerves.
Here are some pictures:
Some guy Alex, me, and the Fabulous Caitlin!
There was a Justin Timberlake bobblehead doll which I adored.
YAY.
Let's talk about how I forgot how amazing my blue double-breasted cardigan is. I look at it and it makes me happy! Clothing should make us feel happy and confident. Do your clothes make you happy?
8 years in Afghanistan today. We can win World War II across nearly the entire surface of the earth in four years yet we can't "win" this "war" in one mountainous-barren country within 8 years?
What.
The.
Fuck.
We have some serious issues. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|11:39 pm] |
"Relationships, no matter how good, are inevitably a series of compromises. But how much of ourselves should we be willing to sacrifice for the other person before we stop being ourselves? In a relationship, when does the art of compromise become compromising?"
--Carrie Bradshaw |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2009|05:06 pm] |
"Think how much easier it would all be if there was some swift surgical procedure to whisk away all the ugly memories and mistakes and leave only the fun trips and special holidays. But until that day arrives, what to do? Rely on the same old needlepoint philosophy of forgive-and-forget? And even if a couple can manage the forgiveness, has any ever really conquered the forgetness? Can you ever really forgive if you can't forget?"
--Carrie Bradshaw |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|07:40 pm] |
I just got back from the grocery store where I bitched out a 55-year-old crazy woman. I'm in line for like 10 minutes, she has $350 worth of groceries and needed to put back $100 worth of her groceries. Her bill is like $250 and she wanted to pay about $220 in cash and then she asked "Can I pay the rest in rolls of quarters?"
My jaw dropped and the bitch whipped out two rolls of quarters from her purse. The manager says that she'd have to weigh them so she takes the two rolls of quarters and they weren't measuring up. Then the cashier is forced to count them.
And then the crazy woman asked, "Why do you have to count them? I have to take a cab home." $250 of groceries in a cab!!!
I've had enough by this time and I ask this bitch, "Is this your first time in a grocery store?"
The managers jaw dropped, the cashier laughed, the crazy woman didn't say anything, and I was pissed.
SHE HAD FOUR CARTONS OF EGGS. What are you going to do with four cartons of eggs? And then she's like "O I'm going to need to buy some plastic bags too. How many bags will I need?" She also had TWO MOPS. I never even use my one mop.
I almost yelled, I was as calm as I could be.
Please euthanize our hopeless senior citizens. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 2nd, 2009|01:52 am] |
I asked David Sedaris if his hands hurt from autographing all those books. He asked me if I went to school there, at UB, asked what I studied. He asked Cassie if she went to school there as well. He asked me how I stay so trim, I blushed and said I don't know. Cassie said I'm a picky eater. He said not many people could pull off the sweater I was wearing. I think I said "O it's just a cardigan!" I was definitely blushing by this time. He asked me how tall I am, I said 5'7" 5'8". He said he knew Michael Jackson's costume designer before he died and Michael Jackson was only 5'9" but had huge hands. Then I said, "I'm trim but you're amazing!" and giggled like a fucking school girl.
David Sedaris is soo tiny, so amazing, so funny.
I think David Sedaris flirted with me. |
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| I Took My Lucky Break And I Broke It In Two, Put On My Worried Shoes, My Worried Shoes. |
[Sep. 29th, 2009|11:35 pm] |
How is Sex and the City so applicable to a gay man's life?!?!??!!?????
"Honey, you look back so much you should have a relationship rear view mirror. Relationships may appear closer than they actually are."
"There they were. Samantha's friendly neighborhood pre-op transexual hookers. Half-man, half-woman, totally annoying." THIS IS MY NEIGHBORHOOD, by the way.
"Is there such a thing as relationship karma?"
"Dump him immediately! Here! Use my cellphone!"
"Should we get more coffee or get two guns and kill ourselves?"
"Flaws are the best part."
"That's because men never think that anything is their fault."
I'm going to finish the third season in a few minutes!
This show is so incredibly cathartic, again--I've never connected with a stupid television show so much.
I must decide what to watch next after I finish the other three seasons: Finish "Keeping Up Appearances," finish "Buffy the Vampire Slayer," finish "Six Feet Under," finish "Twin Peaks," "Battlestar Galactica," "Hannah Montana," "Babylon 5," "My So-Called Life," "Strangers With Candy," "Star Trek: The Next Generation," et cetera. Decisions, decisions!!! Thoughts??
xoxox |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 28th, 2009|04:13 am] |
Hmmm I have no idea which two I am. |
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| Amazing |
[Sep. 9th, 2009|11:00 am] |
Art project on campus.
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| Haay |
[Sep. 4th, 2009|03:42 pm] |
Boat shoes!
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 3rd, 2009|09:21 pm] |
OMG 56 DAYS I CAN'T WAIT. |
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| Uh |
[Sep. 2nd, 2009|10:50 am] |
Wow.
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| Last Night They Said The Fire Had Spread And We Said Our Prayers |
[Aug. 30th, 2009|10:59 pm] |
Taylor came to visit me this past week. We had insane amounts of fun. I can't wait to visit him soon.
We went to Niagara Falls and went underneath Niagara Falls and right next to it as pictured above. It was a great experience. It was seriously such a great week.
We are complicated. It's okay.
There's so much more I could write but I am unable to accurately verbalize how amazing he is.
Olive juice. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2009|02:10 am] |
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GOALS:
1. Car
2. License
3. New job
4. Passport
by the end of September.
I will have no excuses anymore after Friday. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2009|05:26 pm] |
Okay I take that last entry back; still depressed. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2009|02:03 am] |
feeling pretty happy and content lately.
WEEEEEEEEEEEIRD. |
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[Aug. 14th, 2009|08:09 am] |
TAYLOR IS HERE IN 10 DAYS!
I'm going to pee from excitement.
We have an exciting list of activities to accomplish.
I'm just very excited; the future is looking brighter in many ways.
I have often felt stuck for the last 3 years. This feeling has turned into more of a waiting sensation recently. I should try not being depressed, try to live and chill out instead of impatiently waiting and planning years and months ahead about leaving Buffalo. To just tackle things one-at-a-time and not shut down as I usually do. Okay nevermind I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. I just need to calm down.
"You betta work!" is a good motto.
K BI. |
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| A Whole Month's Salary, Gonna Set It To Flames On Some Girl, We Just Met Recently |
[Aug. 6th, 2009|11:01 am] |
Twitter is down. LiveJournal was down. Facebook is being retarded. I couldn't function this morning.
I cannot wait for August 23rd, seriously I'm going to go crazy.
Now that I am 23, I have finally been able to declare complete financial independence from my parents in order to get the most financial aid yayy. So, this year I am taking out a $5k subsidized federal loan and a $7k subsidized loan and I'm getting a $5k federal grant and a state grant for one semester for about $2500. It's about $3500 to attend my school and if my calculations are correct, I should be getting ~$4000 each semester for "school-related expenses."
I'M GOING TO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
PAPA'S GETTING:
1. A license,
2. A car,
3. Car insurance,
4. Vacations,
5. School shit. I guess.
6. Et cetera.
Yeah yeah I know I have to pay it all back.
I just have to wait until 8/23 for direct deposit. Most importantly, Taylor is coming that day as well!! It will be the best day in human history ever!!!!
Fabulous!!!!!!!!
I guess going to school forever does have some benefits.
I opened up a Bank of America checking account just so that I can have one of these:
I just have to wait now. |
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